In this fast paced world, do you ever just have the feeling that you want to sit down, away from the movement, away from the noise, and stare at a blank wall? Not meditation, not yoga, not anything. Just a random human staring at a random wall, letting their thoughts meander as they would, getting some rest from constant sensory stimulation.
Our world is loud, and busy, noisy and needy. It is constantly demanding something of you. It wants to stimulate all your senses, through noise and pictures. It wants you to constantly think about consuming and products. It wants you to be too busy to ask any questions. Although we have the world at our fingertips in our mobile devices, and the internet, sometimes it is good for you to just switch off.
In my routine, sometimes, when the need for it is too overwhelming, I like to put ‘Stare-at-the-CN-tower’ time. I sit down in the quiet, usually early morning, and stare at the CN tower colours. They move up and they move down, undemanding and that’s all I think about. Seems kind of dumb, doesn’t it? Maybe I should check into the nearest mental hospital?
After the constant ringing phone and questions at my work, after the constant thoughts and mindfulness trials, after the jostling of the TTC, the hustling of life, I like the fact that this sitting is undemanding. It asks nothing of you, except to sit. If you are uncomfortable with the idea of meditation because it seems too hokey to you, or you feel you would be ‘bad’ at it, try this instead.
Just sit and let your thoughts meander as they would. Do not try to control them, do not try to stop them, do not pay attention to your breath. Just be. Give yourself permission to do that. Let any guilt over being lazy or unproductive go. You will feel like you are wasting time. If you are unable to stay longer than 5 minutes, then stay 5 minutes. Do it for as long as you want. Or need. Take the time that you need to recalibrate yourself back to zero. And do it as often as you need to.