Relationships bugger them all

29 04 2011

Not a rant on relationships as the title would indicate. I just wanted to use the word bugger in my title for some reason. Oh yeah, by the way, congratulations to the Royal Couple on their wedding nuptials.

Anyway, my best friend is in misery right now because of a man and that makes me want to kill him. Any guy, or any person in general who makes my loved ones upset, should be hung up in stirrups and dragged on a rocky floor. She went on a few dates with him, and they were awesome. They chatted about marriage and relationships, everything you do not talk about on a first date. He liked her or it seemed. She definitely liked him. Sparks flew. They went back to his place for some intense make-out session. He ventured to go to third base right away and she stopped him. My friend is unique, in that she doesn’t want to have one-night stands anymore, she’s done that, she’s sick of it. Now she is only going to have sex with a man who actually seems to be going in an exclusive relationship way. He looked disgusted, affronted, offended. He immediately ended the date and drove her home. She hasn’t heard from him since, except the text saying, We want different things from life at the moment.

What is this about? I mean, I have been on a lot of dates in the past few months, and I have never had that happen to me. A guy refusing to see you because you are unwilling to sleep with him on the second date. She didn’t say she wanted to wait until marriage. She said, she wanted to wait until she felt a bit more of a connection to him. That’s all, I couldn’t believe that he stopped talking to her over this.

I am still reeling over this, so I am going to stop talking. But what do you think? Is it right, wrong, common, happens all the time?





What script are you following?

3 04 2011

I am reading the book, Simple Prosperity, by David Wann. He asks us to consider what script we are following when we are living our lives? That is a really interesting question to me, as I have been pondering on the same question for a while now. The reason the question irks me is because it is so true. What script are we following? Why are there so many of us following the same way of living? Why does everyone live the same exact life? Why are we becoming so two-dimensional? Why are we becoming so similar in the way we live our lives? So similar that our facebook status updates wouldn’t be indistinguishable from some one else’s.

We all are born, go to school for about twelve years, go to a university for four years, get a 9-5 job after which pays reasonably well, get into debt with credit cards and student loans for the life that we want to lead, get drunk every friday and saturday night so we have something to talk about on Monday morning, get married in a big hoopla getting into debt for it, so we can prove to the world that our wedding is something different, have children, because of course everyone has to have children (!), and then wait for retirement, focusing all of our attention on our children, as we ourselves lose all semblance of a life.

I mean, is this all what we have to look forward to? Is this the ONLY way a person can live a life? And if the person wants to live differently than they are persecuted, until they conform to the ‘normal’ way of living. Why does everyone need to get married or have children? Is there a rule book somewhere that says we cannot do otherwise? Will the time-space continuum fail if we remain single or childless?

The funny thing to me is that no one even thinks about living a different way. I mean, for a lot of my friends, living a different kind of life, without marriage or children or a big house in the suburbs or a vacation every year in Mexico, doesn’t even seem a possibility. It doesn’t even enter their thinking process. Why would they think otherwise? It has been working well for their parents till now, it should work out well for us as well.

I propose a different script for my life. I want to live a nomadic life. I want to work six months of the year and travel the other six months. I want to visit a different country every year. I want to work small, part-time jobs, and spend all of my free time, volunteering in politics, and other environmental charities. I do not want to get married or have children, but I do want to have relationships. I want to consume as little as possible, so I do not have to worry about storing all of my stuff when I leave the country for six months at a time. I want to do working holidays and teach English and work on cruiseships.

Of course, everyone asks me the question. When will you stop living this way and live normally again? I always look at them with sadness in my eyes. Why do I have to stop living this way ever? I ask them. Will I run out of something in the near future that I will need to replenish by staying at home for long periods of time and having children and a marriage? Will that save me from something unknown? Why do I have to stop? Unless I get tired of it, I do not think I will stop.

What do you think of my script? What is your script?





Jamaica

6 07 2009

I had two people at my workplace just come back from their honeymoon. And its funny how they are so different in their approach to marriage, and honeymoon.

One of them didn’t take any photographs, had a simple wedding and didn’t go for a honeymoon, instead choosing to take care of their home needs. The other took thousands of photographs, had an extravagant wedding and went to honeymoon in Jamaica. Both had loads of fun and had a great wedding. You dont need to do a lot to be happy, you just need to figure out what makes you happy, truly happy.

When I was hearing her chat about Jamaica, about the way they live, the simplicity and generosity of the people, I just felt like saying right then and there, I renounce my old life, and I quit my job and I am off to explore the world. It just made me wanna leave right away. I hate this feeling of restlessness, the feeling that I want to travel right now and I dont care about the consequences. I wonder, though, if I had left earlier, I wouldn’t be dealing with this glitch right now from my family.

I guess, everything happens for a reason. I’m here for a reason right now, and I have to deal with that reason and then I can leave. I was thinking that there are two ways my life can go right now. One, if I lended money to a relative like they asked me to, then I think I will have money coming to me in different ways, maybe by selling my paintings through the exhibit, or maybe some other way. Two, if I didn’t lend the money to my relative, then I think I will have less money coming to me from different places. I always believe that the universe has its own subtle way of working that we can never understand. So, me trying to figure out the pathways of my life is an exercise in futility. But it doesn’t make me wanna give up, obviously, I try harder to figure things out.

I have a few crises at work right now, and I’m taking  a mini-break from it, just to stare out the window at the beautiful sunshine. I biked to work today and I hope it doesn’t rain tonight, when I’m biking back home.








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