I cannot believe its the middle of January already and looking back at the beginning of the year 2013, over the first two weeks, I notice that I have made a few subtle changes in my life, but nothing major. I haven’t accomplished anything yet and in fact, I have been going with the theme of hibernation and laziness for the most part. Resting, taking care of myself, taking care of my relationships over goals, and accomplishments, and my health over money.
This is such a new way of doing things for me, that every time I think of it, I cringe. How can I live in this fast-paced world by being slow? By taking care of myself and my health over anything else. Taking care of relationships over making more money and spending more time at work. Choosing non-resistance and peace, over anything else. I feel like I am living in a dream world, moving away from the existence in this consumeristic culture where more is always better. In my case right now, more sleep is the only thing I care about. More time with family and friends. More time on myself, journaling, meditating, yoga, long baths, short routines. More time on happiness, less on accomplishments.
From time to time, I wake up and have this feeling of being behind. I am behind, I think to myself, I haven’t done anything yet, I should be working on this and this, etc. I panic, and get anxious. I get this nervous ball of energy in the pit of my stomach. I cannot eat, cannot sleep. I have to then stop myself. When I feel the most harried, and crazy, is when I have to really slow down. The moments where I feel I cannot afford to take a break, I have to take a break. Have a slow cup of tea, sit down with it, savor it, waste a little bit of time on FB, or whatever social network you use to de-stress. Just take the time. All of a sudden you will realize nothing is urgent that it can’t wait for a 1o minute tea break.
You are able to go back to your work slowly but with the assurance that you are relaxed and you are already there. You have nowhere to reach, nowhere to go. Life will come to you, if you just wait for it. And you will be surprised you won’t even have to wait too long.